Truely Blessed

I am truly blessed. I am blessed to have such an amazing life. I am blessed to have some of the greatest friends in the world. I am blessed to have such a supportive family and home life. I am blessed to have such a courageous man in my life, who is fighting for our freedom as we speak. I am blessed. 

Today as I was walking home from the library, freezing cold (because it is still under 40 degrees in April), I realized all of this. I feel horrible that I have not noticed this before. I had such an amazing weekend off from work and got to celebrate with some wonderful friends. It is always nice to let loose and enjoy a night off. We have 4 weeks of classes left and one week of finals. Summer can not come quick enough. And once again, I have been blessed with amazing opportunities in my career field and I will once again be working with kids and adults with disabilities. I am so excited for another amazing, learning experience - while getting to do something I love.

As for now, I am petal to the metal with work and classes. Busy keeping in touch with my marine and brainstorming up some great package ideas!

Until Next time,

And we are off!

I have been in such a mood since B's last phone call at the beginning of the week (and it is only Thursday). Not even one week down. I forgot what it was like, but once reminded I remembered this feeling of emptiness. Even though we were typically 600 miles apart since school and where he is based, phone calls and skype sessions made everything easy. Plus our trips that we had often been making back and forth on weekends. Now it is just a waiting game. Next thursday marks one final year - due to the extension that was necessary to deploy once again. 

The first package is all packed up and ready to go, just need to make my way to the post office. With classes and work and life, I have had zero time to do anything. This is the first Easter we are spending apart since we started dating 5 years ago.

And if any of you are stuck in a mood because of the weather, I am right up your ally! Tomorrow is the first day of April and we here in lovely Pittsburgh, still have snow. For real! We have 4 weeks of classes and a week of finals and we are covered in snow. I am not a happy girl this week.

Soon enough everything will turn around....LET'S HOPE!

Until next time,

Deployment #2...check

Deployment was moved up. B and I are back together and happier than ever (minus the fact that there is a 10 month deployment in the way of us seeing each other). But in less than a year, he will be home and out of the USMC for good.

Please pray for B and the rest of the deployment as they travel for the next several months.

So for now, I am back in the countdown of when he will be coming home and I can run towards the buses to wrap my arms around him! After all, homecomings are the best part of the deployment...right?

Everything happens for a reason?

I have been so busy. My life has become a hot mess. As I said in my last post, B is getting deployed to Libya. . All I know is this deployment is going to be different than last deployment. So much more dangerous. So much longer. So much more alone.

We decided that we will no longer be together. We love each other. But we need to figure out own lives out, and then see where that takes us. We have been apart so long, we just learned to live with avoiding major parts of our lives. We learned to live without, yet with each other. We are going to see where this new road takes us. We are still going to keep in touch (as much as the USMC allows) throughout the next ten months. At the end of deployment, he then has a remaining 2 months in the marines and he can finally say SEE YA LATER and come one back home. We can see where we are in our lives and see where life takes us. I know this seems as if I am getting a 10 month "Hall Pass." Yet, it isn't. I could never. So then what are we? Basically our relationship is "on hold" for the next 10 months. I don't know what this means, or where it will take us.

So until then, I am going to stay positive. Enjoy the rest of this semester, summer, and fall. Figuring out where and what is going to happen for graduate school. Seeing where life takes me. Keeping a smile on my face.

Until next time, HAPPY 1st DAY OF SPRING!

Deployment #2

Friday AM, the bad news arrived! They moved what was supposed to be about a 7 month deployment to a 10 month deployment, and now they are leaving next month. Giving us one week to say our goodbyes, and they are off. Not to mention, it is to Libya! Seriously, of all places? Needless to say I will not be sleeping for the next 10 months, or however long they decide to keep them there. I am just besides myself, but I need to stay positive for him.

To be continued soon....

Breakdown

Tuesday is over, and the week is already ruined.  Steelers lost. I have slept on average 6 hrs a night at most. Seeing is that I am up at 2am and I have to be up at 630. I am already stressed. Already nervous. Already ready for summer break. Nothing makes me more nervous than my future. Thinking about how things are going to be in 330 days when B moves back home. Where I am going to be in school, will I be accepted into graduate school? If only there was a way we could time travel into the future, just to get the reassurance that life isn't that bad. To know that this last 11 months will fly by, and everything will go back to how it was 4 years ago when B first enlisted. I obviously feel for the other military spouses and girlfriends out there, just when I know the end is so close and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel - I just want it that much quicker. However, life doesn't work that way. So tonight, I had a breakdown. A breakdown that thank goodness B could attend to - at least via cellphone. He has been so busy with work-ups and just work in general for deployment we have not had much time to keep in touch and talk about the things going on in each other's lives. And everyone is getting all excited about Valentine's Day. My feelings = blah. This will be our 5th Vday. We have celebrated one. In my opinion, its nothing special. Just another day. We love our significant others every other day of the year to, right? However, I am not gonna put a damper on everyone who loves this holiday. Make the best of it this year (:

My plane ticket is booked and I am counting down the days until I board a plane to see B. I have 23 days and a whole lot of work to do between now an then. It is just wonderful to think about seeing him so soon, especially when the next time I will see him is going to possibly be Easter, but if not June and then December. BLAH = my feelings exactly. Thank goodness though for a shortish deployment. Shorter than last time and at least it has to do with him getting out and them not extending his contract or it would be much longer.

USMC I will be claiming my marine on JANUARY 6, 2012.

OOH-RAH!

Here we go!

Today will be a day full of black and yellow and gold and cheering!

Here we go Steelers, Here we go!

"Knockin on 7s door!"s