Friday, January 28, 2011

I'm Back

I have most definitely been MIA for the past few weeks. It is so hard to make time which absolutely stinks because this blog has been such a detressor and relief from the real world. I have kept up on reading other blogs so I am still in the loop. Classes started back up two weeks ago. I am taking 18 credits and as an Exercise Science major, it is not the easiest thing in the world. I have also been working everyday except for Tuesdays for the past two weeks as well, hence no time. 
This week has been just one of those weeks up until last night. You know the weeks where everything that can and will go wrong, does? B has been going through so much with the corps and just life in general, and it is so hard to be strong for him when I need to have a mental breakdown. He has 341 days  to go as of today! Of course we have plenty of work-ups and a 7 month deployment between now and then as well. It was a week full of tears -on both sides- and up until last night lots of uncertainties. B sometimes feels that it is not fair to me for him to be this far away and for him to put me through the things that he does. He just doesn't understand always that it is my decision, and 3 years ago, we knew exactly what we were getting ourselves into and I promised to see him through the 4 years and for the rest of our lives. He feels I deserve someone that can be here. He was recently diagnosed with severe anxiety and depression, which is another thing that breaks my heart. He is such a strong individual, and for him to come out and admit it has been a rocky road for the both of us. He had a 20 day leave back over the holiday and i think him being back home with his friends, family, and just living a "typical" life for those days made him realize everything that he can have back home. That was the first time in 3 years that he has been home for more than a week. It was an amazing, emotional 20 days though.

Is this normal to be going through all of these rocky roads? I look and see some military spouses and significant others seeming so happy. This is just a phase, right?

On the other hand, February is just around the corner, and as much as I usually do not look forward to Valentine's Day. For some reason, this year I am fairly excited about it.  B has not been able to make it home in the past, and this year it is going to be the same. But I am keeping an open mind, and hoping the next 341 days fly by. Not to mention to all of you football fans - The Steelers are going to the Superbowl! I went to the AFC Championship and I am so proud to say that I am from the amazing city of Pittsburgh. Despite all of the snow and rainy weather, it is such an amazing place to live and raise a family.

Until I have another free minute, HAPPY FRIDAY!

Enjoy the weekend (:

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Day of Acceptance

‎"Embrace diversity. Educate your community. Empower each other. Love life.”

- 3E Love Founder, Annie Hopkins (1984-2009)

I have been so MIA lately. With classes starting back up and now working more hours at work, I have had barely anytime to relax, let alone sleep. I have had a cold to top it off! Work was canceled tonight due to the snow, so I will be catching up on much needed homework that has already been assigned and possibly a movie, but most definitely GRAY'S ANATOMY!

Happy Thursday (:

Monday, January 10, 2011

Where my B Spear's Fans At?

Who is excited for B Spears new single! Hold it against me! Have a listen. 


Saturday, January 8, 2011

It's Official

B will most definitely be deploying this summer. Total bummer. Originally because how deployment fell, they were asking him to deploy and if he didn't extend then he wouldn't go. Easy enough - don't extend, don't go and get out 2 months early. Well that was in December, before his 20 day leave. He left on Wednesday to be back down to NC for Thursday AM. Thursday afternoon, orders are in. He is deploying and sending him home next December if he doesn't extend. REALLY? They could not find anyone else who could do his job the whole deployment. I understand he is manager of his shop and works his ass off, but they could bring another man aboard. Our luck, deployment is happening. Super bummed because he was supposed to be home for my 21st birthday and to celebrate the holidays next winter. Unfortunately, the marine corps had other plans for us and this is what we have to deal with. I shouldn't complain though. It could be worse. And as of the 6th of January, we now have less that one year left until he is done, done, and done! Then he will be moving back to Pittsburgh where we can finally start our lives TOGETHER.

I hope everyone has been having an amazing new year. I have been so busy with work and visiting with friends. I love being home but at the same time I cannot wait to go back to school next Saturday. Not to mention we have an extra long weekend because of the holiday on Monday (President's Day).

Tomorrow mom and I are making homemade pierogies! I cannot wait. I am so excited to do some real cooking and learn to make something that my grandmother and aunts used to make when they were younger. Bringing out the Polish side of me!

For all of you Britney Spears fans also --her new single comes out on Tuesday! WHAOOOO!

Saturday, January 1, 2011

New Year.

I am so blessed for the life that I am living. I am thankful for all of the challenges, obstacles, and praises that have come into my life this past year. I have been so busy and out of the blogging world lately. So much working and visiting with family and friends. I cannot complain though because I would not have it any other way.

So here is to 2011. Working 3 jobs. Taking 18 credits and living up the rest of my junior year. Hopefully this semester with a 4.0, followed by this semesters 3.5. YAY!


PS: Any of you Pittsburghians - The Winter Classic Starts Soon! Although PSU took a hit today, our Pens are ready for it! HERE WE GO!